[Discord] - [Permaban] Appealing for harassment.
Posted: Fri Apr 19, 2019 9:41 am
BYOND Name: Sk1Tz
Reason Banned: Multiple instances of discord harassment.
Admin who banned: Vincent Airin
Length Banned: Permanent
Appeal Reason:
It's been roughly three months since I was booted. I waited that long for a couple of reasons, mainly was convinced by a friend to just be patient for awhile before posting this. To think it through n' stuff. So I did, and here I am. I'm definitely positive that I changed for the better, at least in terms of thinking before doing something I'd regret, as well as controlling my frustration sensibly. I'm now venting to my buds, in a healthy way mind you, rather than take it all out in the instigator's dms. If you want me to get people to come here and vouch for me, I don't mind asking them over. To assure you that I'm not pulling anyone's leg.
Now, beyond my personal progress of being more open-minded and stable with my anger problems, I do have issues regarding the incidents that are used against me for this ban. Or, I want to emphasize a point in which none of my actions were of malice intentions. I didn't go out and wanted to hurt someone emotionally or any of that crap. I did what I did with the thought of what I was doing was right.
For example, Aronai. I heard some admittedly vague information that Aronai was pulling a [REDACTED] type of thing against a good friend of mine. So I confronted him about it, courteous at first, but nearing the end of the conversation I misread some of the things they said as passive aggressively hostile, and I took offense to it unfortunately. I know what I did wasn't the right choice, and that there were better ways of handling something like that, but at the time I didn't think of it. I eventually got in contact with them again, apologize, and we made up for it thankfully.
Another incident I wanted to address was the straw that broke the camel's back, my interactions with Ragolution. I initially messaged them to question why they made a admin complaint against Nylon, cause he's a bud of mine and he didn't strike me as a guy who'd cause a problem serious enough for another admin to take it to the forums. I was extremely chill with them in the conversation, except toward the end. Because, for whatever reason, despite us being rather cool with eachother in the past, they were very hostile toward me for asking what's up. Like, insultingly hostile. Still to this day, I don't know why or what happened to instigate that kind of attitude from them. After they decided to ignore me for several hours, I just decided fuck it, and told them how it's been fun conversating with them about art n' stuff, but they changed for the worse, and we couldn't be pals anymore.
Honestly though, as much as I would like to think I was polite at the end, I didn't need to say that last bit. Looking back at what I said, it was definitely passive aggressive, and there were pleeeenty of better options than trying to sink a inoffensive-but-offensive jab at the guy. I still feel distasteful with his actions as an admin and as a person, but he didn't deserve that. For sure.
I'm sort of hazy on any other noteworthy example of me being a shit to others on Discord, except for the arguments that occurred in Citadel's public discord. Those I do not regret, and I really don't want to apologize for. Especially since all of them occurred when I was defending Ray from getting his usual, daily, unnecessary bullying in the general chatroom. None of the admins did squat to stop it, and to prevent it from happening, so I stepped in and helped the guy out. Because that's what good people do.
Other than that, if there's anything else I'm forgetting, it would be nice if I'm reminded. Cause there might be some things here and there that I may want to refute, or apologize for. I do believe I'm fit to return, and if there's some doubt, I wouldn't mind negotiating a bit. Like, perhaps the inability to chat, only view? Up to you guys.
Reason Banned: Multiple instances of discord harassment.
Admin who banned: Vincent Airin
Length Banned: Permanent
Appeal Reason:
It's been roughly three months since I was booted. I waited that long for a couple of reasons, mainly was convinced by a friend to just be patient for awhile before posting this. To think it through n' stuff. So I did, and here I am. I'm definitely positive that I changed for the better, at least in terms of thinking before doing something I'd regret, as well as controlling my frustration sensibly. I'm now venting to my buds, in a healthy way mind you, rather than take it all out in the instigator's dms. If you want me to get people to come here and vouch for me, I don't mind asking them over. To assure you that I'm not pulling anyone's leg.
Now, beyond my personal progress of being more open-minded and stable with my anger problems, I do have issues regarding the incidents that are used against me for this ban. Or, I want to emphasize a point in which none of my actions were of malice intentions. I didn't go out and wanted to hurt someone emotionally or any of that crap. I did what I did with the thought of what I was doing was right.
For example, Aronai. I heard some admittedly vague information that Aronai was pulling a [REDACTED] type of thing against a good friend of mine. So I confronted him about it, courteous at first, but nearing the end of the conversation I misread some of the things they said as passive aggressively hostile, and I took offense to it unfortunately. I know what I did wasn't the right choice, and that there were better ways of handling something like that, but at the time I didn't think of it. I eventually got in contact with them again, apologize, and we made up for it thankfully.
Another incident I wanted to address was the straw that broke the camel's back, my interactions with Ragolution. I initially messaged them to question why they made a admin complaint against Nylon, cause he's a bud of mine and he didn't strike me as a guy who'd cause a problem serious enough for another admin to take it to the forums. I was extremely chill with them in the conversation, except toward the end. Because, for whatever reason, despite us being rather cool with eachother in the past, they were very hostile toward me for asking what's up. Like, insultingly hostile. Still to this day, I don't know why or what happened to instigate that kind of attitude from them. After they decided to ignore me for several hours, I just decided fuck it, and told them how it's been fun conversating with them about art n' stuff, but they changed for the worse, and we couldn't be pals anymore.
Honestly though, as much as I would like to think I was polite at the end, I didn't need to say that last bit. Looking back at what I said, it was definitely passive aggressive, and there were pleeeenty of better options than trying to sink a inoffensive-but-offensive jab at the guy. I still feel distasteful with his actions as an admin and as a person, but he didn't deserve that. For sure.
I'm sort of hazy on any other noteworthy example of me being a shit to others on Discord, except for the arguments that occurred in Citadel's public discord. Those I do not regret, and I really don't want to apologize for. Especially since all of them occurred when I was defending Ray from getting his usual, daily, unnecessary bullying in the general chatroom. None of the admins did squat to stop it, and to prevent it from happening, so I stepped in and helped the guy out. Because that's what good people do.
Other than that, if there's anything else I'm forgetting, it would be nice if I'm reminded. Cause there might be some things here and there that I may want to refute, or apologize for. I do believe I'm fit to return, and if there's some doubt, I wouldn't mind negotiating a bit. Like, perhaps the inability to chat, only view? Up to you guys.