Re: [Poojawa] Maintainer Application
Posted: Thu Aug 08, 2019 7:33 pm
So, uh, this post is probably gonna be fairly emotional, since this is a little heavy for me. And by a little I mean holy fuck I'm not designed to handle these types of emotions.
So, back when the events were happening that were leading up to your original resigning, I had a lot of faith in you. You had some issues, but I felt confident enough that you would be able to work on resolving those issues if given enough time. This is why my support for you was pretty much damn near undying back then, I had faith that you would be able to work on yourself and improve as a person. This is also why I was rather blunt towards you about a year back regarding the issues you've had, as I've noticed they were starting to get much worse as time went on, so I tried pointing them out to you in an attempt to try to work out a way you could possibly improve on them, and yet all you did was resign. I'll admit that I was a little bit of a dick about it, but hey, what happened, happened. I genuinely wanted to see you come back after you posted your resignation letter, but then you started pulling some stunts, which really made me start thinking twice about you. I think you might've apologized for what I'm hinting at, but what's done is done, and hey, we all do some pretty dumb shit sometimes.
So. About a year goes by, and you've gotten back into being an active developer. And you're still a genuinely good coder when you've got your sights set on something; the code behind the color matrix'd human rendering is a pretty damn good example of that. Your code is the kind that I don't have to go through with a fine comb to make sure things won't catch fire, since most bugs with your code tend to be edge-case scenarios or are bugs that're hard to catch in local testing (especially when throwing into the mix the bugs caused by trying to run two clients on one machine!). Buuut you haven't really shown a whole lot of signs of improvement in other areas since the talk I had with you a year back. You've shown that your skin's grown thicker, for sure, I can give you that without a doubt, but you're very much prone to not knowing how to admit fault when appropriate, among a handful of issues that I tried pointing out to you directly back then. A prime example of what I'm talking about is the incident where you blamed metastation for causing seemingly inconsistent issues with your code, when in reality it was actually an edge case bug that needed very specific actions to reproduce locally; you did everything in your power to try to shift the blame onto something else instead of swallowing your pride and acknowledging that your code was the most likely root of the bug in question.
And the issue of not knowing when to admit fault or otherwise swallow your pride is something in particular that I think would make it a fairly bad idea to consider letting you back into the ivory tower, especially considering that the issue in question, among a handful of others, has been present for quite a long time now. If you could try to work on those issues, I'd be able to wholeheartedly give you a plus, but as it stands right now, I'm going to have to leave this with a single -1.
So, back when the events were happening that were leading up to your original resigning, I had a lot of faith in you. You had some issues, but I felt confident enough that you would be able to work on resolving those issues if given enough time. This is why my support for you was pretty much damn near undying back then, I had faith that you would be able to work on yourself and improve as a person. This is also why I was rather blunt towards you about a year back regarding the issues you've had, as I've noticed they were starting to get much worse as time went on, so I tried pointing them out to you in an attempt to try to work out a way you could possibly improve on them, and yet all you did was resign. I'll admit that I was a little bit of a dick about it, but hey, what happened, happened. I genuinely wanted to see you come back after you posted your resignation letter, but then you started pulling some stunts, which really made me start thinking twice about you. I think you might've apologized for what I'm hinting at, but what's done is done, and hey, we all do some pretty dumb shit sometimes.
So. About a year goes by, and you've gotten back into being an active developer. And you're still a genuinely good coder when you've got your sights set on something; the code behind the color matrix'd human rendering is a pretty damn good example of that. Your code is the kind that I don't have to go through with a fine comb to make sure things won't catch fire, since most bugs with your code tend to be edge-case scenarios or are bugs that're hard to catch in local testing (especially when throwing into the mix the bugs caused by trying to run two clients on one machine!). Buuut you haven't really shown a whole lot of signs of improvement in other areas since the talk I had with you a year back. You've shown that your skin's grown thicker, for sure, I can give you that without a doubt, but you're very much prone to not knowing how to admit fault when appropriate, among a handful of issues that I tried pointing out to you directly back then. A prime example of what I'm talking about is the incident where you blamed metastation for causing seemingly inconsistent issues with your code, when in reality it was actually an edge case bug that needed very specific actions to reproduce locally; you did everything in your power to try to shift the blame onto something else instead of swallowing your pride and acknowledging that your code was the most likely root of the bug in question.
And the issue of not knowing when to admit fault or otherwise swallow your pride is something in particular that I think would make it a fairly bad idea to consider letting you back into the ivory tower, especially considering that the issue in question, among a handful of others, has been present for quite a long time now. If you could try to work on those issues, I'd be able to wholeheartedly give you a plus, but as it stands right now, I'm going to have to leave this with a single -1.